Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Literally on a Rollarcoaster

I feel like i have been on a rollarcoaster of emotions lately
one day things are good, the next day you dont think things could get any worse
but right now i am down in the dumbs and im venting on here
its just what i need to do
so stop now if you wish to not here my nonsense of complaints

First off we celebrated my husbands Nana's 70th birthday :)
She is one of the most amazing person i know--she is strong, spiritual, full of knowledge, and would do anything for anyone with that huge heart she has.
All the family got together for dinner and cake (she thought thats all that was going on) --BUT one by one her friends started to show up!! SURPRISE she was so surprised!!! "what did you girls do all my friends are outside" she said hahahah --we all hung out and laughed (fun hearing all the old ladies tell stories hahah just sat back and enjoyed it all)  She is just such an extra ordinary woman and am so glad to get to not only get to call her my nana but also to have her in my family; cant wait to give her some GREAT grandkids
--hard to not have the mr there, he is nanas first grand child and she hold him so close to her heart --

My Grandma headed back into the hosptital, she has been so up and down! as soon as we think things are going to get better they go back down hill! ---she had tons and tons of test done

I then got to celebrate my birthday
birthdays are suppose to be fun
HOWEVER not so much this year
1. my husband isnt here 2. my grandma is sick 3. i have to work all day 4. no celebrating 5. really just doesnt even feel like a birthday!!!!

We recieved the news that my grandma is now terminal. (HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!)
We are unsure how much time we have left with her
there are going to be so many stages we have yet to go through
and i pray for strength!!!
im not sure if it is a blessing or if it is harder to know that we are now living life on a timeline
everytime we say goodbye i cant help but think if it is going to be the last time or not!!
I lay in bed and my mind overfills with thoughts
my biggest struggle is thinking of all the things she will not get to be a part of
being there for my mom its her mother you always need your mom no matter what you no matter how old you always need your mom i couldnt live without my mom!
my younger brother high school sports, graduation, life
my other brother falling in love getting married being successfull
my sisters family growing her being an amazing mother
my nephews getting bigger learning changing
my husband returning from iraq, us starting our family
i could go on and on and on
its just sad and im just sad

She is so little, so brittle!!
I just want her to get to do everything she wants to do
I just want her to be ready when its her time to go
I just want her to not have to be in pain
I just want her to tell me everything and anything
I just want to never let her go!!!

i quote her "there are going to be a lot of times that we just sit here and cry and thats okay that is just fine"

ssssooooo if you listened to my craziness of life and venting right now i ask for one thing! pray pray pray pray pray for my grandmother!! she needs all the prayers she can get --i know that "see you later" comes for everyone i just want her to find peace in it all "we are sad for us but we are happy for her to get to go spend life with her heavenly father; something we all live to do someday"

Friday, September 23, 2011


yes I have been a stranger, I have decided I am better at reading/following others blogs rather then actually blogging.  I feel like it is probably because 1. My life is far from calm these days (go go go go go gooooooo work is hectic still trying to get in a routine, errands galore and to make things even worse grandmother is back in the hospital and its not looking good at all VERY stressful and hard to take it all in  2. Everynight no matter what time it is when i get home i have to send my husband and email so that we stay connected and he knows what is going on in life back here (which i am so beyond grateful we have and we don't have to communicate by snail mail FOR NOW) however, this does take time. but if i didn't get one from him i know  i would get nervous, sad, curious, aggravated, etc! SO i know he would probably feel about the same exact way 3. I have been getting a lot of reading in i have actually just been CRAVING to read ....i get home from work or other events that i have going on in life and just want to read hahahhah

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Family --River Sand Bank

Yet another weekend is over :)
Anymore I feel like im the most nonproductive person come Sunday night when reflecting my past few days and events that I accomplished.......... it is not even funny ( hahahhaha )
I dread Mondays (don't we all)
but everyday is what you make it
AND with the weekend come and gone only means the countdown gets less and less before Mr comes HOME!!!!

The brother was back this weekend from college and the WHOLE FAMILY including mom went down to the sand bar on the river --the boys where all being boys shooting guns, catching animals, skipping rocks, getting dirty BEING BOYS!!!!
I captured pictures and videos because moments like this
(outdoors, with loved ones, FREE event, --well they make the best memories)
I however got very disappointed when I found out after two minutes that I was Not recording my nephew when I thought the whole time I was hahhaha
Dad/Grandpa had caught him a frog and he was just playing with it like it was his stuffed animal or something hahaha giving it kisses, pulling him in every which direction, and even squeezed him a little to hard that "idk what" just popped out of the little frog EEK OOPS
We are not cruel people and we do love animals but the truth of the matter iiiiissssss we are a hunting family
just how it is --mid western Iowa grown humans!

All Boys
Tucker, McCoy, Ty, Dad, Trey, Trevor

Loving the Water

What we call a diaper wedgy!!

Friday, September 9, 2011

50 rules for dads of daughters


if your a daughter
or you have a daughter with a great daddy

smiles, laughs, tears, and lots and lots of memories!!!

I strongly agree

1. Love her mom. Treat her mother with respect, honor, and a big heaping spoonful of public displays of affection. When she grows up, the odds are good she’ll fall in love with and marry someone who treats her much like you treated her mother. Good or bad, that’s just the way it is. I’d prefer good.

2. Always be there. Quality time doesn’t happen without quantity time. Hang out together for no other reason than just to be in each other’s presence. Be genuinely interested in the things that interest her. She needs her dad to be involved in her life at every stage. Don’t just sit idly by while she add years to her… add life to her years.

3. Save the day. She’ll grow up looking for a hero. It might as well be you. She’ll need you to come through for her over and over again throughout her life. Rise to the occasion. Red cape and blue tights optional.

4. Savor every moment you have together. Today she’s crawling around the house in diapers, tomorrow you’re handing her the keys to the car, and before you know it, you’re walking her down the aisle. Some day soon, hanging out with her old man won’t be the bees knees anymore. Life happens pretty fast. You better cherish it while you can.

5. Pray for her. Regularly. Passionately. Continually.

6. Buy her a glove and teach her to throw a baseball. Make her proud to throw like a girl… a girl with a wicked slider.

7. She will fight with her mother. Choose sides wisely.

8. Go ahead. Buy her those pearls.

9. Of course you look silly playing peek-a-boo. You should play anyway.

10. Enjoy the wonder of bath time.

11. There will come a day when she asks for a puppy. Don’t over think it. At least one time in her life, just say, “Yes.”

12. It’s never too early to start teaching her about money. She will still probably suck you dry as a teenager… and on her wedding day.

13. Make pancakes in the shape of her age for breakfast on her birthday. In a pinch, donuts with pink sprinkles and a candle will suffice.

14. Buy her a pair of Chucks as soon as she starts walking. She won’t always want to wear matching shoes with her old man.

15. Dance with her. Start when she’s a little girl or even when she’s a baby. Don’t wait ‘til her wedding day.

16. Take her fishing. She will probably squirm more than the worm on your hook. That’s OK.

17. Learn to say no. She may pitch a fit today, but someday you’ll both be glad you stuck to your guns.

18. Tell her she’s beautiful. Say it over and over again. Someday an animated movie or “beauty” magazine will try to convince her otherwise.

19. Teach her to change a flat. A tire without air need not be a major panic inducing event in her life. She’ll still call you crying the first time it happens.

20. Take her camping. Immerse her in the great outdoors. Watch her eyes fill with wonder the first time she sees the beauty of wide open spaces. Leave the iPod at home.

21. Let her hold the wheel. She will always remember when daddy let her drive.

22. She’s as smart as any boy. Make sure she knows that.

23. When she learns to give kisses, she will want to plant them all over your face. Encourage this practice.

24. Knowing how to eat sunflower seeds correctly will not help her get into a good college. Teach her anyway.

25. Letting her ride on your shoulders is pure magic. Do it now while you have a strong back and she’s still tiny.

26. It is in her nature to make music. It’s up to you to introduce her to the joy of socks on a wooden floor.

27. If there’s a splash park near your home, take her there often. She will be drawn to the water like a duck to a puddle.

28. She will eagerly await your return home from work in the evenings. Don’t be late.

29. If her mom enrolls her in swim lessons, make sure you get in the pool too. Don’t be intimidated if there are no other dads there. It’s their loss.

30. Never miss her birthday. In ten years she won’t remember the present you gave her. She will remember if you weren’t there.

31. Teach her to roller skate. Watch her confidence soar.

32. Let her roll around in the grass. It’s good for her soul. It’s not bad for yours either.

33. Take her swimsuit shopping. Don’t be afraid to veto some of her choices, but resist the urge to buy her full-body beach pajamas.

34. Somewhere between the time she turns three and her sixth birthday, the odds are good that she will ask you to marry her. Let her down gently.

35. She’ll probably want to crawl in bed with you after a nightmare. This is a good thing.

36. Few things in life are more comforting to a crying little girl than her father’s hand. Never forget this.

37. Introduce her to the swings at your local park. She’ll squeal for you to push her higher and faster. Her definition of “higher and faster” is probably not the same as yours. Keep that in mind.

38. When she’s a bit older, your definition of higher and faster will be a lot closer to hers. When that day comes, go ahead… give it all you’ve got.

39. Holding her upside down by the legs while she giggles and screams uncontrollably is great for your biceps. WARNING: She has no concept of muscle fatigue.

40. She might ask you to buy her a pony on her birthday. Unless you live on a farm, do not buy her a pony on her birthday. It’s OK to rent one though.

41. Take it easy on the presents for her birthday and Christmas. Instead, give her the gift of experiences you can share together.

42. Let her know she can always come home. No matter what.

43. Remember, just like a butterfly, she too will spread her wings and fly some day. Enjoy her caterpillar years.

44. Write her a handwritten letter every year on her birthday. Give them to her when she goes off to college, becomes a mother herself, or when you think she needs them most.

45. Learn to trust her. Gradually give her more freedom as she gets older. She will rise to the expectations you set for her.

46. When in doubt, trust your heart. She already does.

47. When your teenage daughter is upset, learning when to engage and when to back off will add years to YOUR life. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

48. Ice cream covers over a multitude of sins. Know her favorite flavor.

49. This day is coming soon. There’s nothing you can do to be ready for it. The sooner you accept this fact, the easier it will be.

50. Today she’s walking down the driveway to get on the school bus. Tomorrow she’s going off to college. Don’t blink.

(sorry about the long posts lately hahah)

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Wedding Blog

It is about to be our 3 month anniversary, technically we just had our 5 month anniversary a few days ago but not to many people know that we actually got married in April because we had our wedding back home in June and failed to mention to anyone (except our immidiate families) that we went to the courthouse in April down in Texas and where technically already married hahaah tricksters!!)
The truth is --we got engaged and told everyone at the end of march ...went and got married not even a week later ha ha But in my eyes when you say yes to being engaged to a man, you are stating that you would marry that person right there on the spot so why do you have to have a long engagment besides to plan the wedding.  WE DID NOT NEED NOR HAVE THE TIME to have a long engagement.  I couldnt wait to be married to him-- we got the dads permission before he proposed to me, and we got both my parents approval before going to the courthouse.  I wanted my dad to give me away and we where planning to have the wedding where he would be able to, but financially we needed/had to go to the courthouse to help plan and have the wedding of our dreams.

I am going to post pictures from the different wedding events :)

Bridal Shower
Both sides: had it in the basement of Nana's church!!
both sides of the family

Most of the bridesmaids (missing two)

The decorations where Gorgeous!

We played this game that was SO SO SO SO funny :)
  My sister asked me questions that the future hubby had already answered, and I had to answer how I thought he would.  For everyone that I got wrong I had to stick a piece of double bubble in my mouth! ha ha By the end I couldnt even open my mouth let alone get an answer to the other questions out. Was so much fun and got a lot of laughs :)

The wonderful gals who through the shower for me :)

The Mom and Mom in-law

 Opening all the wonderful gifts                                             
The one on the right is for the hubby! (smart ass)

                                                       Bachelorette Party
The boys had theres this night too.  So the VERY last bar we all met up together HOWEVER no pictures where taken of any of the boys night (which can only mean our night was better hahaha) They grilled out at one of the groomsmens house and then bar hopped in town (which my husband had not got to do very often since he joined the army so he was completly content with the small hole in the wall hometown bars.)  We HOWEVER started in a garage with happy hour and games--jumped on a bus and went into Des Moines for a much wilder crowd..

Team Dennis--the bus they rented for the night

The Crew

The Attire for the Bride To Be
The Bridesmaids Of Legal Age



This is just a scary picture that we shouldnt go into details about HOWEVER this guy had a good time making us all do this :) so many inappropriate pictures!!!!

                  I will stop sharing now--this night just got more and more glazed over after this point!

The Rehearsal and Decorating

The Mr made these as a surprise --he is kinda a cutie

The Girls

The Boys (missing a couple)


I am in the process of going through our photos and getting the ones I want picked out so they can be edited.  We got a great deal and had a gal we went to high school with, who does photography on the side capture our special day! She gave us the cd with ALL the pictures from it and we can just pick and print whichever we want because she signed over her rights to us! SCORE and she did an amazing job


Headed to see my man -----shortly after our first time seeing each other on our wedding day!
We kinda look like a 4 year old in a candy store hahah <3

Our Fun Lower Halfs
The best part of our whole wedding party--the little ones!!! :) we had 3 cute boys and 1 dollface girl

The Whole Party!!!!

Some fun ones


The tears are starting --him making me laugh so that I dont turn into a blubbering mess!


Almost to the Reception had to make a pit stop for some more captured moments BEST PICTURE :)



Candy Bar was the best idea ever---it was a huge hit (especially to keep all the little ones entertained haha)
The cake and cookies where delicious too recommend her to ANYONE! SO SO SO SO good

Just a little fist pump action going on 

In Loving Memory of Papa ---many tears during this song but a WONDERFULL moment at that

The Love of my life-My hero-My best friend-My hearts keeper-My forever and always forever and ever

Day After
Gifts @ rentals garage

"OFFICIALLY" mr and mrs

Mom and Girls

One of my favorite boys EVER Mr. Tucker Todd

First time in awhile that all the grandkids had been together for Grandma Hubbard
Doing this Blog and then going to a wedding last weekend has made me want to do this day over and over and over again !!!! :) I apologize for it being forever and ever long but it was also my way of documenting our day and reliving all the memories---i hope you enjoyed and if i bored you i am sorry hahah if all else maybe someone is a photographer, wedding planner, engaged, OR SOMETHING where my blog may have been put to some use hahah i love pictures and love seeing captured memories ESPECIALLY of my loved ones.